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I'd very much hoped that knowing you would let me skip at least a bit of it.

[or maybe there's a cat loki out there somewhere who's work he could copy; it's all equally valid]

Does it at least get more fun at some point? Being?

if that was the case, i would have gone back in time and told myself all this

[A lie. It would ruin the story to do that. They wouldn't be themselves anymore either. But it seems like it might be a useful thing to say to this Loki.]

oh yes i would think i'm at least proof of that!
some of the older schemes are fun too once you have a little distance, more perspective. a lot of them were fun at the time too

Oh, well as long as there's nostalgia to look forward to.

Does being honest with you count?

not exactly.
too many differences for it to count, namely with how we were raised

Does it make that much of a difference? At the core of things?

not at the core of things, no
but i am still my own self, separate from you

being honest with me may help, though, even if it does not technically count as being honest with yourself

Did you have to learn? How to be properly honest with yourself?

trial by fire as they say
a few deaths here and there, but a repeating theme in them all. the truth i had to face was that i hated myself

the steps after that were harder, as you can imagine.

Is it a lot of thinking you're through the worst of it and then realizing you're not remotely?

i don't know, i'm definitely through the worst of it now. the issues i deal with now are rather minuscule, or at the very least, they don't bother me nearly as much as they used to

but at the time, it felt like i was slowly burning. a gradual thing, yeah? whatever ups or downs i may have had, that fire remained until it finally consumed me.

[a pause, during which they'll probably guess that this loki is fixedly turning the phrase 'slowly burning' over and over in his head for a bit.]

But it's worth the work.

[period serving as question mark, obviously.]